The memorial fund will remain open until September 17th, which should give those who have been told me they are on vacation more time to contribute. I’ve noted each and every donation and kept close count. To keep things honest, I’ll post evidence of the final amount and contribution to JustGiving. (We are talking “I can buy a new iDevice level of giving here, people! This is truly a marvelous community).
Now, back to me. The issue of positive versus negative motivation hasn’t resolved yet. The problem has been breaking old habits and the expectation that only negative consequences seem to get me moving. After a lifetime of reacting to imminent deadlines – it’s due tomorrow; or dire consequences – pay this bill or sit in the dark, it’s very strange trying to become proactive instead of reactive. I still feel like Pavlov’s dog, trained to react at the first bell tow of doom. Where writing is concerned, pro-action involves looking for the dry kindling and the right fuel to light a fire under me.
To combat the ennui that set in, I started preparing for NaNoWriMo 2013 (National Novel Writing Month). Although I managed a novelette (The Chest: password is red) in 2011, last year just wasn’t in the cards. This year seems doable. But the 50,000 word goal won’t happen without an outline to keep things on track. I started plotting an ambitious psycho-thriller when I ran headlong into that rusty door blocking Judi’s Door of Wild Imagination. After flailing around, I whined to a fellow blogger who referred me to a writing prompt app created by a website called writing.com. It’s a repository and support resource for all things written. It’s by writers, for writers. From what I’ve gleaned over the past three days, the constant contests encourage writers to post their work and get it reviewed honestly by others. More recognition brings more reviews. There are private reviewing groups and chats. The point is to get work out before other people. What’s more nerve wracking and moving out of my comfort zone than putting my stories out there to be judged by writers? I signed up.
I’m hoping this group can provide the oil to pry that rusty door open to writing original fiction. But baby steps still.